Something about the end of the holidays makes me feel like a balloon with a pin-hole, air slowly and quietly escaping until I'm flat and rubbery on the floor. Figuratively, of course.
Literally, I feel like a balloon stuffed full of butter, cheese, and chocolate. I should never want to eat any of those things again, having over-indulged to the point of shame and illness, and yet I continue to put them in my mouth-hole, chew, and swallow.
Oh man oh man oh man am I happy this year is ending. I just didn't really like this year, dudes. There were neat parts of it and all, but mostly I felt frozen; stalled. I always love the fresh feeling of the start of a new year. Does everyone feel it? It feels like new chances. It's almost like when you start a new job, before the employees know what a complete freak you are. There's a chance to make a really good impression on people before you start talking to yourself and compulsively chewing on the ends of your hair.
I always say this -- I know I do -- but next year is going to be something else. Big things will happen. It could be anything. I feel like I don't know what's going to happen, but it's going to be big, and it's going to be good. There are so many things I want to do, and I figure I'm going to try to do all of it. I hear you now, you're saying Stop with all the goal-setting, you're setting yourself up for failure and disappointment. I would stop if I could, dudes. It's just the New Year feels so full of hope to me.
Man, I wish I could be as optimistic about new years as you are. I have never once thought that the upcoming year was going to be "my year." But I hope next year is your year.
ReplyDeleteThanks, I hope it is, too! Of course, I've now come to the realization this is going to require a lot of work on my part. Ugh.
DeleteThings will happen for me, too. My predictions: New job. Moving (hopefully out of SC). B.f. finishing his masters. Also hoping I may be able to try throwing out my b.c. pills by year's end.
ReplyDeleteJust typing those things makes me feel kind of nauseous. Is that what your fresh start feeling feels like?
Wow, that's quite a lot! I'm excited to see what happens for you now! Let me know if you'd ever like a lecture about b/c pills, BTW.
DeleteI definitely feel a little like vomiting when I think about achieving my goals. This must be a good thing. :)
Oh, well. Yes. I'd love your lecture. Here's a thing to know about me: I'm the kind of person who is actually capable of learning from other people's mistakes, so I'm all about advice about things that I'm not yet faced with. I also pay very close attention to parenting advice.
DeleteSweet. So my lecture goes: B/C pills are the devil and my personal opinion is they jack with your lady parts and can end up being a hindrance to eventually getting pregnant when you finally want to. And I also think the older we are, the more this is the case, and being older, the last thing I need is another roadblock when my eggs are already wanting to go on a permanent vacation. My advice would be to quit them now. That being said, every person is different and I know people who have gotten pregnant immediately after quitting the pill (and also while on certain pills). This is really just me projecting my problems onto you; take it with a grain of salt. :) But what you should absolutely start doing if you don't already is taking folic acid. *lecture over*
DeleteWe've talked about me quitting the pill early, since I've been on it so long. I'll let you know if I decide to. If you know of any studies about the issue that are peer-reviewed and such, send 'em my way. (Science boy cares about that stuff)
DeleteI'll keep an eye out for any such studies. :) What has been proven is that it can take several months for ovulation to resume once you quit the pill. Depending how long you've been on it, you may have stuff going on you don't even know about because the pill suppresses the evidence of fertility issues. I think if nothing else, quitting the pill early and getting to know your real cycle can only be beneficial. You're likely perfectly healthy, but if there are going to be any issues on the road to conceiving, the earlier you know the better. Again, I feel like I'm trying to go back in time and talk to myself -- I started trying at 31 and here I am at 34 with only two miscarriages to show for it. Don't take everything I say too seriously -- practically every woman I know has gotten pregnant and had a baby at this point, one way or another (with and without fertility problems and aids like IVF/surgery etc).
DeleteSee, and I do have some potential problems. Lurkers, if you will. (Since we're over-sharing: I have a bigole uterine fibroid and I've had ovarian cysts, plus I once had PID) So it may not be a bad idea. But I just haaaaaate the alternative birth control forms. Hate em. Hate.
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