Don't get me wrong -- I think for the time, it was right. But if I were getting married today? At age 32? And with hindsight being what it is? Here is what I would do....
I would go here:
Viva Las Vegas
I would invite maybe 10 people.
I would wear something like this:
With my hair down, and no veil, but a gardenia in my hair is a must.
That there is a lot of pomp and circumstance on my head.
I would wear false lashes!
And three pairs of Spanx.
I would get a tan ahead of time.
I would write my own vows.
I would not wear shoes or if I were in Vegas, I would wear flats.
Yes, that is satin, and a drop waist. I am a crack smoker.
I don't know why I torture myself with these thoughts.
There is no way, being who I was at the time, that we could have had that wedding; the simple Vegas or beach wedding. My wedding day I was so freaked out I couldn't eat. I don't know why. Maybe it was the finality of it? Or being the center of attention?
There's no use in wanting to change how things were, and as it happens, it was perfect for many reasons. I guess part of my musings on how I would change things is just me knowing myself better, now. There's no need to do something for the sake of doing it, if it's not true to who you are.