Tuesday, August 18, 2009

The Annual Panic-fest

Two years ago this month, I almost passed out during a meeting at work. I hoped no one in the room would notice that my chest was heaving as I tried to get enough breath to continue being conscious. It was a problem that had been happening for a few weeks at that point, and that meeting was the straw that broke the camel's back. I had to do what people in my family simply do not do unless they feel they might just die -- I had to go to a doctor.

Many, many, many tests later, my doctor told me that I had an enlarged heart valve, an arrhythmia, an iron deficiency and a vitamin b12 deficiency that used to be called pernicious anemia because you could actually die from it. My condition is exacerbated by stress and I've been told not to be terribly surprised when it returns occassionally. Which is why, today, I am not terribly surprised that my heart is thumping and my head feels light.

It is, after all, that same time of year that set me off the first time -- budgets. During this time of year, my blogging efforts flag due to late hours in the office and a general feeling of being pissed off for about 30 days straight. So, I must apologize for any spotty blogging this week, but you see, I will be flogging myself in my ergonomical chair for the rest of the month and any blogging I do might end up seeming even more bitter than I normally seem, and that's saying something.

September will be better, I promise...

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